Friday, 18th January 2013
She said no, we will not be more than friends. At least not now because she is not thinking of dating anyone. Never knew someone could make me feel this way again. She asked if I was angry at her, and that she'd understand if I was. I wasn't, I couldn't. She asked if we were still friends. Of course we were still friends, how could I let go of our friendship just like that? Perhaps we were not fated to be. Perhaps things take time.
That night, I tried to drown my sorrows, to numb the hurt so I will not remember. Didn't help. Never did.
Saturday, 19th January 2013
Spent the day in bed trying to get back on my feet. Failed.
20th January 2013
Went to work this morning to finish some presentation that had to be done. Totally hated going back to office on a Sunday, but she accompanied me for breakfast. It was like nothing's changed, just that now I could be more open about liking her. We talked, we laughed, we poked fun at each other and in the end as usual I sent her off on her way home.
How could I hate someone as wonderful as her? How could I not be friends with you?
If only there was a way to know how you really felt...
